Panromantic bisexual, music geek/nerd/obsessed, loves to play instruments, i can play 6, ive been through a lot, so i know what a lot of you feel.
Im ALWAYS here to help you; just message me and i'll do my best to help you.
Im not perfect, no one is, but i'm perfectly flawed, and still struggling to come to terms with myself.
Everyone should be happy with themselves; you all so so beautiful!!
Remember to smile, and enjoy my random blog of who-knows-what. :)
--->Stay strong my pickles :3
YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY ANNOYS ME?? WHEN SHOWS GO ON COMMERCIAL BREAK, THE THEME SING FROM A SHOW STARTS, AND THEN GOES ON COMMERCIAL BREAK AGAIN.
someone who obvisiouly is thinking of Gerard Way cuz he’s better than all of us. also a really weird 11yr old’s profile and thhinks shes better than Gerard Way.
hey everyone. so i thought id just rant about life and struggles and recovery and my love situation and how i love you all and beauty. here it goes:
My life has been rough. adoption has left a void that i cant explain. its hard to cope with sometimes. i admit i’m not the best with coping skills. i’ve done (and still do) things i’m not proud of involving metal. I’ve harmed myself in a lot of ways. HOWEVER i am getting better. I’m getting help, don’t fret. Yes i’m not the bubbly person. i have many things on my mind. why am i putting this out there? because i want you to know that i have shit i deal with, and that’s why i get what some of you feel (depressed, suicidal etc.). Because i want you to know that everyone has issues to deal with.
anyways, recovery. its a loooooooooooooong process. yes you and i have relapses, but that’s normal. it’s hard quitting an addiction. you can’t quit smoking cold turkey without having all of these bad side affects and really craving a cigarette or a cigar. Its hard. but you’ll get through it, i’ll get through it, and we can help others stay clean and stay happy.
ok now love. its an amazing thing..that i don’t have. I recently kinda gave myself a label to describe me: cisgendered panromantic bisexual. I don’t have anything against trans, gender fluid, intersex or people like them at all, heck i’d date them if they were nice and respectful etc., but personally i’m not comfy having sex with them. I don’t mean to be rude in any way, but that’s my preference. i don’t mean to be offensive in any way..but its who i’m attracted to.
now for the best topic: you.
you are an amazing human being. you are gorgeous. you are awesome. i know you may not be able to see it now, but things will get better. i promise. Listen to the songs ‘The way she feels’ by between the trees and ‘don’t lose hope’ by red jumpsuit apparatus. beautiful songs.
I will always be here for you. you are priceless. you are wanted and needed on this earth. you make someone very happy and smile everyday because they have you. They couldn’t bare seeing you gone. You’re loved so much. You’re cared for by so many people. You’re not alone in this life upon this earth. I love you.
If you’re looking for a long rant post to not drink that alcohol, use that blade against your skin, take those pills, put that flame on your body, this is it. You’re too beautiful for that. you are loved. If you put yourself through that pain, you put your loved ones in pain too. they don’t want to see you down or depressed or suicidal or self harming or overdosing because their love and joy is hurting, and they don’t know what to do to help, and they’re scared for you; they don’t want to lose you. ever. Darling, you are loved. Please don’t self harm tonight. Hug the nearest stuffed animal or your pet or the fluffiest blanket and feel it’s warmth. Be in the moment. Just breathe.
My rant for now is over; I may add to it, I may not. stay strong; I know you can do it, I believe in you. Youre amazingly awesome. I care. You’re not alone.
I’m so upset right now. Yes I know I get too attached to things. Its a major flaw, one of many that I have.
How about we burn that book